Vicious cycles and irony

I had a long phone conversation with my dearest buddy zhenjie yesterday.
We were on the topic of cherishing things and not taking them for granted.
Then we realized how hard it was to actually do it consistenly.

Everytime after watching a movie( eg 13 Going Onto 30, The Click, World Trade Center) or reading some novel in which the main character regrets not cherishing his/her loved ones only after sime mishap occurs, I'll be saddened with guilt. I'll make a promise with myself that I'll treat my family and all my friends like it's the last day before apocalypse strikes and tell them how much they mean to me. But after the effect of the movie wears off gradually and I am embroiled once again in the daily battles of life, I get desensitized and starts to take everyone close to me for granted all over again.

Then, when i get around to watching some movie which preaches the same notion, I'll feel even worse than the previous time,upon reminder that I failed to stick to the promise I made earlier on.
As such, a vicious cycle get built up. The same things happen over and over again. The only difference lies in the fact that I get more angry and disappointed at myself each time round.

Is it just me, or is it just typical of humans, or even Singaporeans to feel this way?

It could be because when we were touched during the movie, we as the audience, were moved afer seeing all that the loved ones have done for the lead. In reality, we only see our own hardhips, our own troubles, and we fail to see what others have been consistenly doing for us, without our knowledge. In fact, only those that truly loves us will give unconditionally, without expecting any acknowledgement of their efforts.

The people who loves us most are the ones we treat the worst.

Deep down you know that no matter what you do, the other party will always forgive you. That's what we make use of to vent our frustrations. On the ones who truly care about us. Yet, when we're outside, we flash our fakest smiles at the people who won't give a care about us if we didn't happened to be useful to them.

It's ironic isn't it?